My baby girl is dying. I hate those words but they are true. Yes, I realize she is a dog. But she has been a HUGE part of my life the last 13 years. HUGE. My 21 year old self got her on a whim. Puppy years were not so easy. But that cute face made the pee and poop worth it. She once chewed my $500 glasses and I lost it. But then she curled up with me and it didn’t matter. We’ve been through a lot togther: Nine different places of residence, four roommates, two college degrees, gaining a husband/daddy, a countless number of hikes, vacations, beach trips, and all of her pup friends dying on her. She used to be the annoying puppy climbing all over the old dogs in the fam. Now, she’s the blind, going deaf one who is annoyed by the new pups in her life. She puts up with our friend’s kiddos and lets them pet and tug on her but she’s old and tired now.
She’s been letting out some yelps of pain randomly and we knew it was her teeth. It’s happened before. She’s got horrible teeth. Yes, they’ve been cleaned several times. They’re just inherently bad. Plus, she’s old. So, this morn my baby’s at the vet having surgery. Those nasty teeth are being pulled out and I will officially have a somewhat-toothless old lady who has to eat soft food. I don’t mind being the crazy lady with a dog I treat like a child, that’s just me. But I also don’t want to be the crazy lady who spends WAYYY too much money on a dog. Yes, I’m uber pathetic with her but I do realize, ultimately she is just a dog.
I don’t want to lose her but I know the time is coming. We agreed to do this surgery because the vet took blood and said everything looks great with the exception of her teeth. I don’t feel like her time has come….yet. Whether it’s one month or one year, I know it’s coming and I’m all too aware of it. So, for now, I’m soaking up every moment with my little old lady. Her kisses, her stubbornness, her annoying routines, her loving personality, her snuggles, and the immense joy she has brought me over the last 13 years. Thanks, Cass. You are the absolute BEST dog I have ever had.