I realize this post has nada to do with food. BUT as I was driving to work, I was completely and totally overwhelmed at the work God has done in my life and felt the need to share my thoughts and thankfulness. This is the best way I know how…
I’m a worrier. Anxiety fills my soul daily. Doubts and concern consume my thoughts. Uncertainty leads to fear. Inevitably it all becomes too much and I either shut down or freak out. If you read this blog, you know well my struggle with having to move from our beloved home. If not, catch up here. The awesomeness that is only God provided an amazing place for us to live which you can read about here. Of course, now that we’re moved and are somewhat settled, that incredible movement of the Lord in our lives has been forgotten. Sad, but true. Lately, I have been focusing only on doubts, concerns, uncertainties. Please know there’s nothing major going on here. Ultimately, we are healthy. We are happy. We are employed. We are good. So why my angst?
The biggest thing right now is the hub’s vehicle. It’s a necessity for his job and has just about 300,000 miles on it + a multitude of issues. It’s served us well but it’s time for a new one. We’re actually amazed the F-150 has survived this long. Someone please knock on wood RIGHT NOW! We’ve known a new-to-us vehicle was coming and now the time is officially here. Hubs did his research and found some good deals. He has a great working relationship with some car folks so we’re hoping to score where he found “the one.” Now, the money part.
We’re doing good and have been abundantly blessed but that darn student loan of mine (learning to stick needles in people is NOT CHEAP, people) just keeps dragging us down. We can’t seem to get ahead. We’ve literally been through Dave Ramsey’s Financial Peace University three times. Yes, three times. We get it. We’re doing the cash thing. We blow it sometimes. For the most part, we’re hanging in there. Our new home is more pricey (although still an AMAZING deal) and we’re still adjusting to that. And now, a car payment? Haven’t had one in a while. My little Corolla will be driven until the wheels fall off, even though the paint has already started to go =( ugh!
This isn’t really a choice, though. A work vehicle is a necessity so it’s not like we have to make a decision to get one or not. We need it. Enter anxiety. Last night the hubs was nonstop car talk and I shut down. Like, if I ignore it maybe it will go away? This morn on my way to work I was overwhelmingly convicted. When has the Lord forsaken me? NEVER. Yes, we had to decide to not go on a vacation. Not the end of the world. He provided a place for us to live right when we needed one. An incredible place at that. I’ve switched jobs in the last year thanks to Him and it’s been unbelievable. Between the work environment and the friendships I’ve made, I’m not sure how I survived without these godly people in my life before. I was reminded of ALL my blessings right when I needed to be.
The Lord will provide. It’s our responsibility to be smart, make wise decisions and to lean on Him. So I’m praying about everything from my attitude, my anxiety, the salesman, the price point, the right vehicle, and so on. But most of all, I’m trying to remember. To remember Him. To remember all He has done for me. To keep him front and center. And to be eternally grateful for all He has done and is doing for me. The best part is, He doesn’t forget. I may not remember my blessings and focus on my anxiety but the Lord does not. He will never forget or forsake me or you. And that’s the way our God works. And, oh am I thankful for that! Now… onto the dealership!